I had to post again ...
Only my family who obviously know me well, can verify that i never talk about it.
Firstly,as i said earlier i bottle it up...
Secondly and most important to me above all else is that i firmly believe we only have one life and i'm not going to ruin it for my partner.
I encourage my wife to fit as much into life as she can... thats what makes me feel better..
The only crisis i ever had was when i had an heart attack, i knew the ambulance was coming and i knew they'd want me to go outside.
It took hours to convince me to go to Hospital.
Have to cut this short... teas ready..
Hope i'm not rambling on again lol
Nope, not rambling, could be helping someone